Change

This question was on a job application...I made a post about this question and how I think questions like these are......irrelevant in some cases...but I just wrote and wrote...this is what came out. 


"Please give an example from your last job of how you provided excellent customer service"


oh lets see...well just the other day this gang banger got shot in the head at point blank range...he left parts of his brain on the scanner...so I picked it off and stuck it back in the hole!

or this guy was minding his own business...pumping gas...when two guys jumped'em...stabbed'em 17 times...so I had to stick a tube up his ass to make sure is bowels weren't perforated...then I had to clean up the massive amounts of blood left behind.

This girl came in who was 30 weeks pregnant...she was walking to work when baby daddy got these 3 other girls to kick the shit out of her...her face was so swollen that she was unrecognizable and as she was crying asking if her baby was alright...I lied to her and said "I'm sure everythings fine!" yet she had blood coming out of her vagina

Or the lady who was drunk driving with her two kids in the car...and killed one of them...and when she asked me if I was a praying man and I said NO...she screamed for me to get away from her cause she only lets praying people touch her...tell that to her dead 8 year old

lets see...the lady who got the meat cleaver to the head...or when baby daddy walked in and shot baby momma and her brother in the face with a shotgun...I actually don't see humans...all I deal with are animals...actually animals have more respect for each other...I'm still wondering how I can answer that question

OH I KNOW...I tried to save the lives of the 3 people that had an allergic reaction to the contrast we inject...yet they all died...wait that wont work! Ever see a person walk in to a room...then their throat closes and all you can do is watch'em die!?

I think its time for a change

People just think we're button pushers...I actually hear that quite often. I'd like to see how people would deal with this. There's a trend at work that people only last up to a year and half in the ER on midnight's...I've been there almost 4 years...change is long over due.

All is good...for the moment

Ever have a feeling where all is good? You know deep down that "this is good and I can live like this!" I had that feeling just about a year and a half ago. I thought I found someone I was gonna spend the rest of my life with. However if you've read my posts then you know the outcome. That fire has ignited again! For the past month I've been as happy as I've ever been. Within days I felt mentally and physically comfortable...which is hard for me to do! I told her I was on meds and for once a person who didn't ask why! Was she just being polite...or did she not really care!? She told me that if I wanted to I'd tell her. So when the time was right I let her in on my suicide ordeal. I also told her that I've decided to move back to Boston. 

Ever look into someones eyes and know deep down they feel what you feel!? Your so close you can feel their breath and you swear time stops...you know that this person is special...that after all this time that they might be the one you've been patiently waiting for!? Well that's what it's like...and yet again I can't have it! I get to look her in the eyes knowing in two months time it'll all end! I've reconsidered my decision to relocate...however I made a promise I can not back down from...so yet again I've lost someone that's special...so yet again I'm alone! I've given in to the fact I will never come out on top...I can only be defeated...I can only accept it. 

I will embrace the day when that someone is not ripped away from me like a child from its womb...when I will not have that bottomless feeling in my gut. People may not understand because they will never meet that person and have those feelings. I'm hoping one day this ominous cloud that lingers over me will dissipate. Until that day it follows me wherever I go...to make my life miserable.