Sixth sense

Don't you hate it when something you do...see...smell maybe even touch reminds you of someone!? I wish there was someway to disconnect that attachment from that person. Most times it can be pretty depressing! I caught a whiff of perfume that triggered my senses! Where the fuck do I know that from!? I was racking my brain...flipping through memories (for you that don't know I don't have any memories before the 9th grade...idk why...i've been in therapy and we can't figure out why...anywho) memories...places...people...then it hit me like a freight train...it was the perfume she used to wear...I would wake up smelling it...the nights I'd sleep alone I could smell it on my pillow. I'd smell it when I'd look into her eyes to tell her I loved her...the foods she liked...the places we'd visit...it brought it all back...needless to say it didn't make my day. I wish I could embrace the memories and the fact that I got to spend this time with her...but I can't.
It's not so funny how something that excites the senses can make or break you. But it will remain with you till the end of days.

Wakey wakey

Ever not want to sleep...yet never want to wake up!? I've always said I'll sleep when I'm dead...I don't like to sleep...specially during the summer! I work midnights and get off of work at 6am so when I'm driving home the sun is coming up. But there are those days where I don't ever want to wake the fuck up! I'm just sick of this way of life...maybe it's just me being lazy. I Need to think positive...I need to be proactive...I need my meds haha!

Erase me

need you
dream you
find you
taste you
fuck you
use you
scar you
break you
lose me
hate me
smash me
erase me
KILL ME
KILL ME
KILL ME


Eraser~NIN